The amount of graphic novels I ordered and knowing none of them are mine is pure torture. :’(
Rent paid and finally all christmas presents ordered. My family all done and the bf done took a bit of work but I think everyone will be happy with what I’ve picked. I can relax and budget what little money i have left to last the month joy…
I love that your gross, your crude, how half of the time when we are together we become Beavis and Butthead giggling non stop like goofy idiots. We finish each others sentences, we are both windup merchants and we both are a perfect fit. Our relationship is not always conventional but it is truly sublime and I am enjoying every little bit of it. Thank you.
My leggings came, had an interview and didn’t bottle it. Surprised myself how confident I came across I will be told on Monday. Although I really want the job, I feel my greatest victory is overshadowing and letting go of my past and realising that even after the greatest of falls we can still get back up and overcome it all. Today has really made my day.
Making a conscious decision to become healthy in body and mind. Ordered a lighter hoop will be taking it more seriously and seems like I have several exercise partners lined up. Both my bf and I want to go running together and quit smoking, I’m sick of smoking and how dependant I became on it since I made the decision to quit weed nearly 3 years ago, its been nearly 7 years of smoking altogether and I can feel it in each breath I take.. enough is enough. After being influenced by a documentary that I didn’t not even know was going to include a bit on animal cruelty and our behaviour and how emotional I got about it, after this weekend I am going to become pescatarian as I have been vegetarian before and become anaemic and had to end up being pescatarian last time as I didn’t eat the right things and I don’t have the money to buy the variety of things my body needs if I gave up meat all together. I am just trying to make an effort to feel better about myself my image and how I feel about my inner self. To blossom as a healthier happier being. Its time for change.
A year from Saturday that I got my head out of my arse and made us an official couple, and I still swoon when I look at you. We are disgusting and embarrassing but you are my carbon copy with extras of things that keep me grounded and level headed. You know we just sorta go well together.. and as time progresses my guard drops till theres not much of a wall left and although its scary I couldn’t think of anyone more deserving to see who I really am but you. I have never experienced a relationship where as it develops and blossoms and I feel completely comfortable around them and feel like theres nothing i need to hold back. I find myself falling more and more head over heels. Which makes things difficult as I want to scream it everywhere but I’m not that type of person and it is so hard for me to express it to anyone else but you as I cringe, so you get serenaded very often with random outbursts of I love you over and over. I love that when it comes to PDA your as awkward as I am, ending up with two clueless numptys who both awkward out together. You are special and I can’t wait to enjoy plenty more firsts together. As lately I have felt more like myself and less run by anxiety and I have never felt happier that kind of living looks like a blur. Now I’m ready to create the future we deserve as I intended. Ryan Smith you are my perfect being, more importantly you are mine and I’m looking forward to the best summer I have been able to enjoy in years now.
So the other night was a pinicial moment in my life. We went galicias to celebrate Steven going to teach abroad. Had a little bit to drink, as we left me and Steven walked ahead and then I herd a familiar voice, Immediately I knew it was my ex and his mate and looked at the floor and hurried along as we haven’t spoke or seen each other in over a year or so and a lot had been left unsaid. As I walk off I hear Jen stop and talk to them, I didn’t know what to do so I just walked away with Weebs to sheep. After a masive fuck up of Anna not getting in sheep due to lack of ID and people separating, I finally got to speak to Jen who informed me that he was nice about me and was worried I hate him and said he knew he took me for granted. As I’d been drinking I had dutch courage to use Jen’s phone to call him and clear the air. We talked for ages and everything felt normal. I feel like its a chapter I can finally close in my life and not worry about hostility with him. Then night got a bit crazy of two-in and froing bar to bar trying to see everyone and got way to drunk, I think everyone was, then arguing and not understanding why, crying followed by imporant heart felt chats with my bf and make up sex.
Steven I wish you all the best in Slovakia and will come and see you when i get money. Corinne and Emily sorry for not really being there I was off my rocker and it would have been nice to have spoken with you two more. So I will jam with you guys more. But in all on a whole I feel so much lighter. Breathe out the past and in with the future.